Day 2- The stuggle

Well, yesterday ended with me fighting all the obnoxious voices in my head telling me to eat something I shouldn't. If you have never been overweight then you couldn't possibly relate to these voices. Knowing there is something unhealthy in the house that I can eat makes these voices amplified until I finally give in. Well, not last night. I fought them. HARD. At one point I said screw it and walked over to the kitchen. I remembered we had a package of Twinkies left in the pantry. These Twinkies were not just speaking to me, they were screaming for me. It seemed like the only way to get them out of my head was to eat them. But I didn't. Instead I spread a tablespoon of PB on a half a banana. Craving over.


Today hasn't been as great only because during my attempt at working out my toddler decided he was going to do everything possible to distract me from my workout. He was getting into EVERYTHING! He screamed the entire 50 minutes of my workout yesterday and today I was lucky to get 25 minutes in because of his craziness. UGH. This is why I need a gym membership, so I can concentrate on my workout and only my workout. Twinkies and toddlers. It's just part of the struggle.

Todays workout: Zumba, 25 min.

Meals

Br: 1 c. cheerios, 1/2 banana, 1/4 cup milk

Snack: String cheese, 6 green olives, mandarin oranges

Lunch: iceberg and spinach salad with baked chicken

Snack: Handful of Cheetos, 2 carrots

Dinner: 100% whole wheat bun, spicy veggie chic patty, 1 slice provolone, lettuce.

Snack: 2 Milano cookies

Total calorie count according to MyFitnessPal:

Zero week- My 100 day challenge (DAY 1)

I have been on many diets and have lost weight countless times. I've considered weight loss surgery and used pills and potions I thought would make me thin. As much as I believed those methods would work for me, I didn't completely believe in myself. I didn't commit to myself. Over the last couple of days I have realized that in order to lose weight- regardless of how I choose to do it, I am responsible for every pound lost, bead of sweat, set back, and the end result. Although I have always known that no one can do this for me, it has finally clicked that it is my responsibility. It's my battle, my problem, and my challenge to overcome. Medical intervention may or may not help me. The only person who can do this is me.
Not long ago I found a video of this girl, much like myself. She was overweight and tired of trying various methods only to end up back at square one. She committed to 100 days of working out and in that process lost weight. I can't remember how much weight, but it was significant enough to be noticeable. I have always envied the hard core weight loss bloggers who have dedicated themselves to their commitment and blogged the entire way from fat to healthy. I want that. I want to inspire people. But most of all I want to be healthy...and happy. I have been soul searching over the last few weeks trying to find some type of motivation or belief within myself that I can lose 94 pounds. So, I decided to do my own 100 day challenge. I am challenging myself to eating healthy and exercising for 100 days straight. This first week is zero week because I always sabotage myself at the end of the first week. It takes me a few days to re-adjust my thinking and eating habits when starting a new regimen. Today is day one.
Today's workout: Jillian Michaels: Banish Fat and Boost Metabolism Complete Workout- 55min.

                             Meals:

Br- 1 c. Cheerios, 1/4c 1% milk, 1/4 banana (sliced)
Sn- 1 cup frozen mixed berries, 1 c. unsweetened almond milk, 1 packet Kim Kardashian Meal replacement. (blended in Magic Bullet)
Lu- Weight Watchers smart ones Portobello mushroom fajitas.
Sn- String cheese, Sun chips
Din- French dip on 100% whole wheat bun, 1 slice provolone, grilled onions, 3 slices lean roast beef, au ju., 1/2 mac salad.
Sn- 2 Milano cookies

Total calories according to MyFitnessPal: 1600


**This post was suppose to be submitted yesterday, I just forgot to finish writing it**