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Thursday, March 26, 2015

19 weeks post op- Life is AMAZING!

3 weeks since my last post! Geez! So much has been happening in life, weight loss, work and travel! Weight loss has slowed but it's still coming down, so I'm good with it. Monday I weighed 181. Only 5 pounds in 3 weeks but that's still something and something is much better than nothing! Life is great. I feel amazing. I am making plans to do things I never thought I would do. I was just looking at pictures from last summer and I don't even recognize the girl I used to be. It's actually kind of difficult to look at those pictures and not get emotional because I instantly start feeling the pain and misery I was once feeling. If I could tell my old self in those pictures one thing it would be that you are so much more than the number on the scale. You are stronger than you think and keep pushing forward! I stopped believing in myself and that damaged me more than anything. Once you stop believing in yourself you stop fighting. And I stopped fighting. In fact, I had no fight left in me. So many diets. So many efforts. So many dead ends. I felt hopeless and desperately needed something drastic. VSG was my answer and it was exactly what I needed to help me live longer for my kids and live happier for myself. I had everything to live for but I wasn't living I was just existing. Now, every morning I wake up and I'm excited to get dressed, I'm excited to go places and see people. Before it was a struggle to find something to wear and convince myself I had to go do something. I had to find motivation to see friends and make plans. Miserable doesn't even come close to describing it. I always looked at myself as being healthy, other than my weight. Little did I know, that weight was slowly killing me. I often experienced heart palpitations, shortness of breath and pain in my stomach, which now that I look back at how large my midsection was, I think all that belly fat was literally squishing my insides. I couldn't sleep on my stomach because it was hard to breath. I couldn't sleep comfortably on my back because the weight of my belly compressed my lungs. My PCOS was at its worst!! I just cannot express enough how much this surgery has made such a difference in my life! We leave for Disneyland in 5 days and I am SO excited to actually be able to fit in rides with my kids and join in on the fun and not watch from the sides like I used to.

Monday, March 2, 2015

16 weeks post op!

I weighed in this morning at 186.4!! I had a mini goal to be 185 by the time we leave for Disneyland, which is on the 31st and I should definitely make it! I may even be in the 170's. Eating is great! Nothing disagrees with me. I definitely can't eat much but I do occasionally splurge and eat a bite of my husbands desert or a bite of a piece of chocolate. And I am fine with that. I am completely satisfied with having an occasional treat, just not all the time. I would much rather fil up on protein and veggies than a piece of bread or pasta. Come to think of it, I don't even miss those things anymore! I am feeling so wonderful and am so thankful for this surgery! We will be leaving for Disney in 4 weeks and I am just as excited as the kids. I cannot wait to experience things I would have not otherwise done 66 pounds ago! I wont have to be afraid I wont fit in the rides or on the plane. We will be walking so much I am not concerned about nibbling on things throughout the day. I ordered a fitbit on Amazon and cannot wait to try it out. I wanted it for when we go on our trip and track my steps. After the trip with the kids, my husband and I are taking an extended weekend away to Las Vegas with some friends. I also cannot wait for that! I've been searching for a swim suit but so far I haven't found one I love....the struggle. To think my biggest issue right now is finding a swim suit is crazy to me!