19 weeks post op- Life is AMAZING!

3 weeks since my last post! Geez! So much has been happening in life, weight loss, work and travel! Weight loss has slowed but it's still coming down, so I'm good with it. Monday I weighed 181. Only 5 pounds in 3 weeks but that's still something and something is much better than nothing! Life is great. I feel amazing. I am making plans to do things I never thought I would do. I was just looking at pictures from last summer and I don't even recognize the girl I used to be. It's actually kind of difficult to look at those pictures and not get emotional because I instantly start feeling the pain and misery I was once feeling. If I could tell my old self in those pictures one thing it would be that you are so much more than the number on the scale. You are stronger than you think and keep pushing forward! I stopped believing in myself and that damaged me more than anything. Once you stop believing in yourself you stop fighting. And I stopped fighting. In fact, I had no fight left in me. So many diets. So many efforts. So many dead ends. I felt hopeless and desperately needed something drastic. VSG was my answer and it was exactly what I needed to help me live longer for my kids and live happier for myself. I had everything to live for but I wasn't living I was just existing. Now, every morning I wake up and I'm excited to get dressed, I'm excited to go places and see people. Before it was a struggle to find something to wear and convince myself I had to go do something. I had to find motivation to see friends and make plans. Miserable doesn't even come close to describing it. I always looked at myself as being healthy, other than my weight. Little did I know, that weight was slowly killing me. I often experienced heart palpitations, shortness of breath and pain in my stomach, which now that I look back at how large my midsection was, I think all that belly fat was literally squishing my insides. I couldn't sleep on my stomach because it was hard to breath. I couldn't sleep comfortably on my back because the weight of my belly compressed my lungs. My PCOS was at its worst!! I just cannot express enough how much this surgery has made such a difference in my life! We leave for Disneyland in 5 days and I am SO excited to actually be able to fit in rides with my kids and join in on the fun and not watch from the sides like I used to.