Week 11 Post op

How can 11 weeks be gone already? Either way I will take it! The scale was down another 1.4 from last week, so I am 198. I spent the morning shopping at one of my favorite stores that is closing :( I found 3 dresses for our trip to Mexico this August. I cannot wait! One of them is a size medium and two are larges. I figure I am only 28 pounds from my original goal of 170, and our trip is 6 months away, so that's losing less than 5 pounds a month! I got this! My friend invited us to join them at a Valentines day ball. It's fancy and you have to dress elegantly. I did try on a few dresses but I'm still not comfortable trying them on. I still feel like my midsection takes over. So, I'm not sure we will go. We'll see. Next week I can start eating lettuce, YAY!! I really hope it agrees with me. So far I can eat everything, which is both a blessing and a curse. I'm finally able to gauge how many bites before I'm uncomfortable. We went out to eat last week which was only the 3rd time since surgery that I went out. I over ate. Some of it came up. Not to the point where I was throwing up, its just a "productive burp". Gross, I know. So I spit it out and it seemed to be just enough not to happen again. I feel like I am finally able to drink liquids better. meaning I can drink about 3 medium sized gulps and it have to let that go down before I drink more. Spicy things make me have instant and PAINFUL heartburn, but I can live with that I guess. I've made a few new things this week that were amazing! I'm actually moving my blog soon, so I can add recipes, pictures and a few other useful pages. I'm getting close to 60 pounds gone and I cannot wait to be there!

199.4!!!!! I made it!

I woke up to the best surprise! I'm finally under 200! I haven't been here since before having kids, and that was a long time ago. I am finally in sync with my body and how to read my hunger, which was a challenge in the beginning. I am thinking about moving my blog because I haven't been able to post any pictures, it keeps giving me an error. So, my next goal is 185 by March 31st, which is the day we leave for Disneyland. I had a few things happen over the last week that were firsts for me. I went into Maurices, one of my favorite stores when I was plus size. And what did I do? I walked right over to the plus size section and started shopping. I found 22's, 20's and 18'and then it occurred to me. WHAT am I doing? None of these fit me! My mind hasn't yet caught up to my weight loss. I still catch myself thinking and LIVING like someone that is still 252 pounds. If you've never been overweight then you wouldn't understand the constant whirlwind your mind goes through as an over weight person; will I fit in the seat when I go to a movie or out to dinner, will I run into someone I know and what will they think of me? It's a constant battle trying to talk yourself into actually living your life. For the first time in a very long time I feel like I am finally living again and not just existing. Having this surgery has been the best decision I've ever made for myself! I was looking through old pictures the other day and immediately got emotional because when I see myself as that overweight person I can still feel all the pain and worthlessness I felt. It's really hard to look back on. I am so grateful to be filling this year with new experiences and actually living my life again.

A new low!

I am finally back down to 201.4 since the dreaded holiday gain! I'm actually .2 less than I was at Christmas! I am feeling great! I just looked at my first video and was shocked at how puffy I was. It's actually kin of hard to see. But I am so thankful I am not there anymore and I will never be back there again!! I am hoping tomorrow I will hit 199. I will cry. I haven't been there in 17 or 18 years! Other than that I don't have too much to add but I will definitely post if I hit onederland!!

9 weeks and 2 days post-op- The scale FINALLY went down

I have been concentrating on protein and veggies for the last week and it obviously helped. I had a 2# loss. I am still up 4.6 from before Christmas so I am hoping I can drop that soon. I am the closest I have been to onederland in over 4 years! Things have been hectic at home- both kids have been sick, my husbands been really sick and my son has pneumonia! Other than that I am feeling really good. I went out to eat for the first time since October- it wasn't like I remember. I had beef tenderloin medallion's with bleu cheese and a wine sauce that had mushrooms, broccoli and mashed potatoes. I at one beef medallion most of the mushrooms and couple bites of broccoli and potatoes. I was stuffed! My husband ordered Reese's peanut butter pie, I did have a bite and it was amazing but I was so full I had to stop. This is why I love my sleeve. Pre-surgery I would have polished off my entire dinner AND finished the pie. It killed me that my husband didn't eat it all and left it to be thrown out but, this is why I chose to have this surgery. These are the reasons I was overweight.


We have several trips planned this year and I am beyond excited! Before, I would have dreaded everything about traveling; would I fit in the seats on the plane? Would I need a belt extension? What about the restaurants? would I fit in the booths? And all the walking!!


We are taking the kids to Disneyland in April. Then in May my husband and I are going on a quick weekend trip to Vegas. In July I am surprising my daughter with a trip to L.A. for her 16th birthday, that will also be a quick 3 day excursion. And in August my husband and I will be going on a long awaited and much deserved week long stay in an all-inclusive resort in Mexico. Our new years resolution was to invest in memories- not "things" this year so that is what we are doing! That leaves Sept-December for more memory making.


I was thinking about a weekend trip to Seattle maybe in October and there is an awesome Bavarian town a few hours away that do some amazing Christmas light shows, so that might be great for December!


I have reached some great milestones within my VSG journey; #1 I no longer crave pop (or soda), whatever you call it where you live! #2. I am officially wearing a size 16 down from a 22!


Yay me!

2 Month surg-iversary!

It's very hard to believe 2 months have gone by since I was sleeved. I had another gain on the scales for the second week in a row. The holidays destroyed me. I am upset and angry at myself because I found myself mindlessly snacking constantly. I have no one to blame but myself. I am angry because I didn't go through this hell and risk my life just to fall back into my old habits. It stops now! No more snacking between meals and I am going to focus on working out as much as I can manage. I work swing shift so I get off at 1:15am. Last night after work I went to the gym. Thankfully my work has an onsite gym for employees so I did 30 minutes of weights and a little cardio, not much. This morning I tried to do yoga but Its still very uncomfortable to get into some of the poses. I am considering starting insanity for the next 2 months. It's a commitment but I have 38 pounds to my goal and I'm not going to lose to the struggle. This means way too much to me. I've gained 7 pounds in the last 2 weeks! 7 freaking pounds!! Carbs are a killer and I have to limit them to 20 or less until I'm on maintenance. If I don't see a loss on the Scale next Monday I guess I will have to talk to my nutritionist...